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The
only light in the room came from the lamp on the dressing table; the candles
were extinguished and the gas was turned down. There wasn't a soul in the
little house except for Christine de Chagny—the maid had gone home for the
night and Raoul was out walking. He didn't go out often, he'd mostly stayed
inside since their return to Paris, but he always went out walking after they
argued, like they had tonight.
They
didn't often argue, Christine reflected sadly. As children in Perros they'd
adored each other and would never have dreamed of fighting. Even in those dark
days at the Opera House when there had been so much fear and uncertainty they
hadn't really quarreled much. But it seemed that ever since they'd
bought the little house in the Rue de Rivoli, it didn't take much to spark an
argument between them. Mostly they argued about silly things married couples
often argue about, but tonight it was more serious. As Renée, the maid, went to
leave, there it was on the doorstep—a single red rose tied with a black silk
ribbon.
It
wasn't the first time such tokens had been found outside, and the Chagnys knew
there was only one place it could have come from. It had been left by the one
person they'd both tried to forget for the past three years.
After
the disastrous premiere of Don Juan Triumphant and the scene at the
house on the lake, Raoul and Christine had eloped to her native Sweden, hoping
to leave the past behind them. They'd shed the name de Chagny, calling
themselves M. and Mme. Lachenel. They'd
settled in Uppsala as a
simple, newlywed couple seeking their fortune elsewhere, and for a while they
succeeded.
Christine
sat at the table and smiled to herself. It had been wonderful to return to the
place she'd been born, where she and her father had traveled from fair to fair,
he with his violin and she with her voice. For a while, she and Raoul had known
happiness there.
But
then, even in her homeland, Christine began to grow homesick. Just as Daddy
Daaé had longed for Sweden while he was in France, so Christine now longed for
France while she was in Sweden. Sweden belonged to the past. Sweden could never
be home again.
Raoul,
Heaven bless him, hadn't minded leaving. "We can go anywhere,
Christine," he'd said. "Anywhere you like, so long as we're
together."
So
one year after arriving, they sold the house in Uppsala and went to the French
coast in Brittany, near Perros.
Six
wonderful months went by, during which they lived as though they were children
again. They relived all their old memories: going for picnics, reading to each
other, and listening to the villagers' stories. They'd been right to leave
Sweden, they agreed. This was their home. They certainly felt more carefree and
untroubled here, and everyone who saw them remarked what a charming, innocent couple
they were.
But
as it had in Sweden, the nostalgia began to wear on Christine. She and Raoul
had been children here, and they couldn't be children again. France wasn't
enough after all. She wanted Paris.
She
sighed and reached for her hairbrush. She ran it slowly through her gleaming
brown curls that still had streaks of summer gold running through them. Her
sapphire eyes, usually sparkling, were slightly dimmed as she remembered those
conversations.
Raoul
didn't want to go back to Paris. "We're happy here," he'd said.
"There are good memories here. There's nothing in Paris but
darkness."
"Raoul,
dear boy," she'd replied, "you don't know what other memories this
place has for me. My father died here, and I feel like he's still here. After
everything that's happened, I think I need to learn to let him go."
She
hadn't needed to elaborate. They both knew what her clinging to her father's
memory had done in the past. But still, Raoul stood his ground.
"Why
Paris?" he'd asked. "We can go to Reims, or Nice, or to Brest. I have
an aunt there; she practically raised me."
So
they tried Brest, and Reims, and Nice, but after a year of moving from one city
to the next, Raoul had given in, however reluctantly, and they'd bought the
house in the business district in the Rue de Rivoli, where they'd been living
for the past four months.
A
noise outside the window made Christine start, the brush falling from her hand
and landing on the floor with a soft thump against the rug. She bent to pick it
up again, then sat motionless, listening intently. Around her, all was silence.
After
several moments, she began to work at her hair again. It was probably just a
cat. There were several strays running about; she often heard them fighting at
night. Indeed, now she could hear a duet of mewling voices, sounding so much
like strange, eerie singing.
Singing...
The
Rue de Rivoli was only a few streets away from the Avenue de l'Opéra. She'd
been drawn towards it, even while Raoul had begged her that they find a house
on the other side of the city. They'd avoided the Faubourg Saint-Germain, and
stayed away from public places religiously, as they were both famous enough in
Paris to be recognized instantly among the right crowds, but Christine couldn't
stay away from the Opera House.
It
was natural she'd be drawn to the place, she told herself. It had been her home
since Daddy Daaé had died. Not three days after moving into their new house,
she'd wrapped her face in a veil like Scheherazade and went back to the
theater.
On
the night of Don Juan Triumphant, she had seen only a brief glimpse of
the crystal chandelier's descent from the ceiling, but Raoul had told her that
its crash to the floor had started a fire. The damage had been repaired since
then, and the Opera House looked as magnificent as ever.
She'd
paused outside the building, looking up at Apollo and Pegasus perched on the
roof. She'd fled there with Raoul the night Carlotta lost her voice and Joseph
Buquet was hanged...
Heart
pounding, she'd climbed the steps and went inside.
She
replaced the hairbrush on the table and rose from her chair. How long had Raoul
been out? It seemed like she'd been alone in the house for hours. Her eyes fell
on the rose Renée had found outside.
She
couldn't forget the look on the girl's face when she brought the rose to her.
It was bewildered, startled, curious, and slightly fearful. Christine well
remembered those feelings. They'd taken hold of her every time the Angel of
Music left similar roses in her dressing room.
Her
hand had trembled as she reached for the rose, but before she could take it
Raoul had snatched it and thrown it aside.
"That
will be all for the night, Renée," he said. "You may go now."
Renée
nodded, murmured, "Bonsoir, monsieur, madame," and left the
house.
Christine
silently braced herself for what was coming. They’d been through it several
times already, ever since her first visit to the Opera House. The morning after
she'd gone, she'd found the first rose outside.
At
first she could hardly believe her eyes. It must have had something to do with
her trip back to his former empire. She'd somehow stepped back through time and
was no longer in the Rue de Rivoli, but in her dressing room, after the gala
performance, perhaps. She'd touched the ribbon hesitantly, then looked around
her. It was early morning, and she was outside the front door of the house she
shared with Raoul. Then she'd looked back at the rose. If she was in the Rue de
Rivoli, then the rose couldn't be real. It just wasn't possible.
She'd
gone to Raoul as if in a trance, holding the rose out before her. Her eyes were
anxious as she presented it to him, half hoping he would tell her she was
dreaming. But no; she knew as his own eyes grew wide with shock that she
wasn't. The rose was real.
That
first rose inspired disbelief. The second had filled them both with fear. But
by the time they'd found the third, Raoul's fear had been replaced with anger.
He'd known all along they shouldn't have come to Paris. How could they possibly
leave the past behind them as long as they remained in this blasted city? And
as rose followed rose, it only got worse. It was always arguments like those
that made Christine thankful for her own separate bedroom and dressing room,
where she could escape and think without Raoul’s diatribes about phantoms.
So
she had stood there, preparing herself for the rant brought on by this latest
flower—the rash words, the wild insinuations, and the furious assertions that
they never should have returned to this godforsaken city.
But
Raoul had surprised her this time. After casting the rose away, he'd only
watched her for a minute or two, then he'd gotten his coat and hat and went
out.
Christine
slowly crossed the room and picked up the discarded rose, the sign that he was
always there watching her, the proof that the past is never really gone, never
forgotten, but always with us. Sometimes we carry our memories around like a
stick to lean on or a spare glove in case we happen to lose one while we're out;
sometimes our memories follow us silently, always stealing up behind us when
we're not looking and reminding us that they are still there.
That's
what he's doing, Christine told herself. He's making
sure we never forget him, and if this keeps up we never will.
Maybe
Raoul was right. Maybe it was a mistake to come back here.
She
bit her lip in a moment of indecision, then threw the rose into the waste
basket.
In
the silence she heard the scrape of a key in a lock and the rattle of a
doorknob. She inhaled sharply, startled out of her own unsettled thoughts. He's
here, part of her whispered. He's come back for me.
There
were footsteps in the foyer, rather quiet footsteps that in the stillness
sounded like hammers driving nails into the paneled floors. She could picture
him searching the house, his yellow eyes burning in the darkness as he hunted
for her, his long cloak billowing behind him like a storm cloud, his deathly
face hidden beneath his mask...
The
footsteps came closer, approaching her dressing room. She could barely breathe
as she backed away from the door, half thinking she should bolt through the
adjoining door into her bedroom and lock it. The steps were right outside,
there was no time left, the door was opening—
She
gave a small scream and Raoul stepped back in shock. He recovered quickly, then
went to her, concerned.
"What's
wrong, Christine?" he asked. "Why did you scream?"
She
sighed deeply and said, "I didn't mean to, you just scared me. I didn't
know you were out there."
"I'm
sorry," he said contritely. "I didn't mean to scare you. Were you in
here daydreaming again?"
She
shrugged a shoulder. "Something like it, I suppose. I've been uneasy since
you left."
He
saw the rose in the basket but didn't comment on it. He only kissed her on the
forehead and said, "Well, I'm back now, and everything's all right. My
poor Christine, you're still so pale! Let me get you a drink of water."
He
left the room and she smiled after him. He still doted on her the way he had in
Perros all those years ago.
There
was a rustle outside, as if something were hiding in the bushes beneath her
window. Those cats! Couldn't they ever be quiet?
She
went to the window and threw it open to shoo them away, but it wasn't cats she
saw. Instead, there was a great, dark shape, like the tall and lean figure of a
man. She gave an audible gasp and the figure turned for an instant before
darting away like a shadow.
She
could have convinced herself it was a shadow, except she'd seen two eyes
blazing like coals, burning into her before turning away.
The
past is never gone, and never forgotten. The past was still with Christine de
Chagny; it sent her roses and lurked outside her window. She stood there
frozen, half leaning out of it, and whispered the name she hadn't uttered, even
to herself, in three years:
"Erik."
Ta da!
Your pal,
Angels
I hope I'm not the only curious one! I love this new approach to a Phantom version. My favorite part is about memories.
ReplyDelete"Sometimes we carry our memories around like a stick to lean on or a spare glove in case we happen to lose one while we're out; sometimes our memories follow us silently, always stealing up behind us when we're not looking and reminding us that they are still there."
Erik is like a cat, a BIG cat! ha. Gemma, are you posting this on fanfiction and/or PotOforum? Please let me know so I can leave a word or two. Thanks, Di
Aw, this one isn't getting posted...I'm saving it for publishing! I finished it last year, and Michelle was great enough to help go over it with me and lend advice when I needed it. I promised I'd get it in print for her! :D
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ReplyDeleteYay! Will it be your first published novel? I did see this first chapter on FanFiction by way of your blog site. Is it just a teaser chapter? That's wonderful that Michelle is advising you. She's such a whirlwind of imagination and kindness. I was privileged to actually see her writing a Phantom story, pencil to tablet, on my basement floor. It's a cozy finished garden level basement...ha Di
ReplyDeleteI'm planning on it being the first! I just don't know when I'll get the chance, yet. I need to get a few things straightened out with it first. I posted the first chapter on FanFiction after I realized it could work on its own as a standalone story, but then people started asking me if there was more to it, and it carried on from there. And Michelle has been such an inspiration! After everything she's done, I want to make her proud! That story you saw her writing..."Reality Contrived," wasn't it?
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